joyce

2011-05-22T20:23:00.002+08:00

Somehow i think what keeps you going in life are your goals.. When you achieved one, you just go on to accomplish the next one. no?

2011-04-28T22:31:00.004+08:00

Alot of people told me to get a new job. mainly due to the pay (which is really quite bad) and partly cause of the distance. its a freaking 1h (or more, depending on the traffic and weather) bus ride from home. and the job's kinda, erm, monotonous :x
yes, the pay's not good and job's boring. but im beginning to not mind them. im starting to love the long rides to and fro. the rides somehow had became the favourite parts of my day (besides talking to wei <3 ) :]

so touched by shay! :]

and im starting to feel embarrassed to use my phone openly. everyone i see is using a smart phone when mine is still a ericsson sliding phone.. needa get an iphone soon.

i started praying again

2011-04-21T23:42:00.017+08:00

My mum just pointed to my smu acceptance letter and asked if it was a prank. cause she thinks that it was still way too early for acceptance to start. gawd, which mum would ever say that== haha, mine do :p

finally decided to sit down and type out a proper blog post. was ages before i did this. ohwells. been reflecting alot lately. dont think anyone would read this. but just feel like penning down my thoughts :]

dear, i feel really happy for you. i know this is what you wanted and this is your dream. im really glad to see you finally chasing after it. yes, its tough. but which person chase after his/her dream without going through a trying period? --> okay, the sentence structure is weird :x
so be brave :] im here.

sometimes it feels sorta lonely to look at people move ahead. dear moving on with his navy dream, my bro with his dancing (im really amazed at his improvement!), friends overseas and having a whole new experience, friends finishing their first year of uni and so on. i want this break to end. so at least i will be moving forward to do some catch up.
but somehow i dont want school to start cause of the many uncertainties. dam, im such a bloody ironic person. ==

life wasn't harsh but neither was it kind on me lately. i just dont feel the peace D:
yes, i did get accepted into a local uni (which i was dying for last year) but i was not as happy as i thought i would be. this just means that another wave of uncertainty and insecurity are coming in again when one just ended (japan). my boy will be in ocs and its not helping either. i hate taking up risks but i know it cant be avoided :x
i just know that i want to last through this tough period together with dear and i am confident that we will :]
work is alright. its monotonous but the people in office are generally nice. i just find it rather difficult to digest the fact that im gonna stick with this job for another 3months :x

i am content. and i am happy with what i have now. my dear is awesome, i have awesome friends, family and health. though i did lost some weight lately :x and i have a uni to go to. but to me, its difficult to juggle all of them together, well. i have to compromise one to satisfy another. and it goes on. never will it come to a balance. which sucks!
God do listen and answer prayers. i've been praying so hard to get into singapore uni. and yes, God gave it to me :] but seldom did i pray for kinships/friendships (besides dear and i) and i can feel that this part of my life's being neglected ]: realised that i've always took these both relationships for granted :x
hai, relationships shouldn't be so tiring right...
i pray for healing.

i miss my dear bad ]: feels empty without him. i know im not the best gf, but still stay by me always yes? :]
japan trip was an really eye opener. i learnt and experienced many things that i never thought i would (earthquake being one of them :p ). it also made me truly realise how much you mean to me and me to you.
so yup, i wont screw up okay? :]

and oh, one more thing. i cut my hair! from waist length to shoulder! the joyce 2 months back would never have thought of this. rather impulsive but im glad that i did :] refreshing!

well, i still feel like shrinking away from all these bullshit and running away with you..

<3

short hair:]

2011-04-05T22:51:00.001+08:00

just feel like shrinking away from all these bullshit. and runaway with you

2011-02-26T19:37:00.000+08:00

well, i'm just pretending perfection
i'm flying uncomfortably high

2011-02-25T18:43:00.008+08:00

gosh i miss you so much really..
you're so cute :]

i wont be lonely as long as i have you in my heart.

2011-02-25T18:39:00.002+08:00

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
but that's all right because I like the way it hurts

2011-02-16T16:49:00.001+08:00

You are all I need. So please don't go.

2010-10-09T00:55:00.002+08:00

hahahah. I must be too bored. That's why im here after so dam long :x
As' in a few weeks time once again, prelims didn't look good. so wish me luck! ]:

I need to ban myself from facebook...

2010-05-16T00:00:00.002+08:00

this is pathetic.
im sick im tired and im stressed and no one understands

smile

2010-05-15T00:07:00.000+08:00

Let me be stubborn for just this once..

2010-04-05T22:08:00.002+08:00

"The more you praise and celebrate your life, the more there is in life to celebrate."
-Oprah Winfrey

just stay happy :]

2010-02-23T00:31:00.002+08:00

"okay, can i have your attention for the next 20min please"

2010-02-20T00:15:00.001+08:00

for jolyn :]

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2010-01-27T00:56:00.001+08:00

"The Truth That You Leave"
by pianoboy

i wanna know.

2010-01-15T00:07:00.001+08:00

傻得可以

2009-12-14T05:14:00.005+08:00

alrighty!
its now 5+am and im finally done with the very detailed Japan tour plan :D
i really hope we wont get lost in all the complicated train stations in Japan!

anyway, just wanted to blog before i go back tw in just a few hours time (since there will be no internet in my tw house D:)

and as promised, im gonna talk about my As'. though it seems like ages ago already.
hmm, my As' was just.. like that... ya..
right, i don't really expect much and not much people have confidence in me anyway. but it's really okay cause i dont have much confidence myself too.. ohwells.

then was post As' programmes. they were fine and relaxing i guess :]
namely council bbq, new moon movie outing, met-up with my dear old friends, endless drama and job interviews and etc. hahah
really enjoy these post As' feelings :]

then was prom. its was okay i guess. i have nothing much to say about it though. my feet's still suffering from the side effect of walking in heels.. haha, what a noob i am D:
see to clarence's blog for more! :D

im really happy to go overseas though. to get out of all these shit.
but im definitely gonna miss all my friends.

i hope for certain things to be different when im back, but i doubt it'll ever be, so i guess accepting would be a better choice.
as time passes, they'll fade:] (sorry sijia, i plagorized!haha. but i think it's really true)

okay, im off to tw :] contact me via email if need be. i'll check it when i have the means to do so.

make a wich everyone, its Christmas!

2009-12-02T02:40:00.003+08:00

As' are over. will talk about it some other time

what's in my mind right now is...
its DECEMBER, its the Christmas season once again
love it love it love it :D
simply cant resist this feeling :D

and i really want my no.3!

2009-11-04T02:20:00.000+08:00

I can't believe im taking the A levels next week...

2009-10-09T23:54:00.003+08:00

IM BLOGGING AGAIN. yeah, like after so long. and it will be longer(actually, not really) before i blog again, probably after another 2 months.

one more week of school and it'll be the end of my uniform days(provided i dont repeat j2!). everyone is probably looking forward to it. but i think i'll miss it so much!
but for now, i want the holiday so badly cause i really needa study D:

anyway, prelim's over a long time and it's time to move on!
i've been telling everyone that there's no more time left to be upset and stuff
think i should say that to myself too D:

1 more month left! jiayou, all the A level-ers :]

2009-07-30T01:07:00.005+08:00

current screensaver on my phone

can't wait to change it..

even domo-kun became my study buddy! :D

<3

2009-07-29T01:31:00.012+08:00

im quite looking forward to tmr's career and scholarships fair actually. finally a little respite from all the school stuff :]
but, BUT! i really have no more time to waste :[

honestly, im utterly tired of handling and seeing others handle all the made-complex interpersonal relationships. heh

Anyway! ij's gonna celebrate their 155th anniversary. whoa, its been like, 5 years since that time..
ohwells, time really flies.

"One Voice, One People
One in God's Love,
Called to One Hope"

ohman, how nice, how sweet:]
okay, but i have to admit that the one people part sounds :S

hai, am i ready?
haha, far from it..

2009-07-12T01:20:00.005+08:00

crap. i still can't post any videos/pictures/links.. don't know what's wrong with my blogger. anyway, if you guys are interested, visit the 2 sites below! they're less than a minute and super funny:]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S1ZZreXEqSY
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xk5JNs7KO30&feature=related (must watch!)

looks like the piggy flu didn't affect much of school activities..so midsyears are over for a week now. and the results i got back was nothing but disappointing:[ ohwells, i sort of expected it.
i DID study, but it somehow turned out stating otherwise.heh

actually what im more concerned with my army-of-Us-results is the fact that i disappointed many and it really makes me lousy:[ so working harder is the only thing i could tell myself now. but how much can i do in this mere four months? :/

anyway! busy busy day today. went for investiture rehearsal this morning, played tennis in the afternoon and had cg:] then went clarkquay to meet sijia and all:] lastly, came back for the bbq. woots
had a good gathering:] haha.. we ended up playing stupid games like putting your hands over the charcoal:p

i really dread school, and i bet it's gonna be another disappointing week ahead D:

..waiting

2009-06-22T02:04:00.002+08:00

i finally realised why i want the one week hoilday extentsion so much
cause i haven't really done any serious mugging yet! spent the past 3 weeks watching my queen, hana yori dango seasons 1&2 D: and caught up with the GSS with sijia, shay, kristyn and zhengying.
great way to spend a holiday
but not a so good idea when you have 4 more months to the big As. and one more week to midyears, which will determine the reunion of my mum and the teachers..

im into my 12th year of education and i haven't found a real effective way of mugging yet.ohman.
one more week left(if there's no ententsion), and i still have a considerably large amount to cover. mainly econs, maths, organic chem and the behind topics of phy.
okay, that's like everything= =

anyway, bark up! i don't want to regret. really.

2009-05-30T01:25:00.005+08:00

ohwells, i was bored so i decided to change the layout of my blog.
argh.. the time i spent doodling on this new layout could be spent on doing more productive stuff.. my complex numbers and dc.. D:
anyway! hope this looks fine. the flower reminds me of nana though.heh
done loads of changes changes but the words still looks funny and the tagboard looks out of place too :[
guess im not so IT savvy after all

last week

2009-05-25T23:47:00.011+08:00

Angels and Demons was awesome. Though the storyline was simple but nonetheless, it was captivating:]
many may feel that the show was about science and religon. but for me i it was more of the corruption of people.
a probing question, so can science and religon eventually c0-exist together? Well, this topic was being debated over and over again and still on going, but always coming a no real conclusion. however, what i know and believe is that everything points to an existence of a superior being.

side note.. choy was complaing about her numb hands during the climax of the show! hahah, what great timing! XD

ohyeah, kudos to all aj performing arts people! namely the choir, all dance groups, CO, band, harmoc and guitar. well done on sunday:]

__________________________
this is the last monday of term 2! :O
as this fact slowly sinks into me, i realised that we will soon be gearing up and getting ready for the all-so-important exam. but before looking that far (which is in fact not very far), im more concerned for what is to come in the near future.
good luck to all :]

The night's still young

2009-05-14T01:32:00.003+08:00

Its right now 1.30am and my house is still bustling with activities..

and i just had supper D:

updates..

2009-05-12T00:18:00.005+08:00

I cant say that Wolverine was excellent but i also cant say it was bad. so i guess its average. maybe even slightly above.
cause when i was thinking of it on the way back after the movie, i realised that there's many small details which were sort of sweet.heh..
but it was overall a very guy movie

well, i have a couple of things in my mind right now..
control my diet, its getting out of control :[
stop getting distracted by this damn com
do my gp essay outline

anyway, last week was an busy week
it started off with Chem SPA, which i thought i did relatively okay. i hope..
followed by maths common test and i left the whole vectors blank!
and the week ended with a bang with an econs test. well, im glad that i did manage to write something on the paper :D

on a brighter note, that night the few of us went ichibanboshi to celebrate bella's birthday

<3

im glad its gonna be a short week ahead :]

1 second left...

2009-05-07T00:59:00.005+08:00

im beginning to believe that a hollywood Coach Carter kind of ending happening in a real bball match is possible.
not until today.

aj vs rj
and rj was on the lead by 1 point during the last 10s (yes, freaking 10s)
then drama drama drama then..
woots
the ball went in at the last second
00:00
50-49
:D

guess our luck was used up after that D:
.
.
.
anyway, there's econs test this friday and i think i will be screwed :[

in the midst of doing newspaper article..

2009-04-28T00:54:00.009+08:00

In this period when everyone are(or is?, right, my grammar's still so rotton) so busy with A'div, SYF and what not, i have the luxury of being able to sit down and erm, rest and observe.
yeah, thanks to the fact the my peak period's over :D and i have no intention of going back.
i even had the time to go shopping for a precious 2h on sunday with choy at fareast. woots, shoik.
and trust me, having your wallet unloaded will hold back that urge of you squandering.

ohyeah, Im finally done with the Twilight series (thanks to nella for lending them to me:])
the series really got on my nerves towards the back, though i could not deny that it did have some interesting and good plots nearing the end of Breaking Dawn. and the whole series, in my opinion, shouldn't end without a some sort of fight. i don't know. it's rather anti-climax for me.
Twilight's those love love kinda books and i'll highly recommend the series to those who want to kill time. yeah, they're great time-killers.
i prefer the movie, definitely. and im sort of looking forward to new moon

well, movies.
till now, this year is sure a great-movies-are-being-released season. and it's a real pity that i didn't have time to watch any of those :[
it just means that i have a lot of catching up to do
though i have an inclination towards feminst movies, im so gonna watch x-men and angle&demons. hope that it will be better than davinci

i dont know. it seems that if i slow down by just half a beat or by a quaver or even a semiquaver, i'll be lagging so much behind.
so don't stop, keep on moving
and i finally figured out that motivation is just a lousy excuse

Happy belated Easter

2009-04-14T02:19:00.003+08:00

Well, besides Christmas, think Easter's probably my second favourite festival

happy belated Easter to all :]

Good Friday

2009-04-11T00:04:00.003+08:00

Technically speaking, Good Friday's over. But still..

WHY by Nicole Nordeman

We rode into town the other day
Just me and my Daddy
He said I'd finally reached that age
And I could ride next to him on a horse
That of course was not quite as wide

We heard a crowd of people shouting
And so we stopped to find out why
And there was that man
That my dad said he loved
But today there was fear in his eyes

So I said "Daddy, why are they screaming?
Why are the faces of some of them beaming?
Why is He dressed in that bright purple robe?
I'll bet that crown hurts Him more than He shows
Daddy, please can't you do something?
He looks as though He's gonna cry
you said he was stronger than all of those guys
addy, please tell me why
Why does everyone want him to die?"

Later that day the sky grew cloudy
And Daddy said I should go inside
Somehow he knew things would get stormy
Boy was he right
But I could not keep from wondering
If there was something he had to hide

So after he left I had to find out
I was not afraid of getting lost
So I followed the crowds
To a hill where I knew men had been killed
And I heard a voice come from the cross

And it said, "Father, why are they screaming?
Why are the faces of some of them beaming?
Why are they casting their lots for My robe?
This crown of thorns hurts Me more than it shows
Father, please can't You do something?
I know that You must hear My cry
I thought I could handle the cross of this size
Father, remind Me why
Why does everyone want Me to die?
When will I understand why?"

"My precious Son, I hear them screaming
I'm watching the face of the enemy beaming
But soon I will clothe You in robes of My own
Jesus, this hurts Me much more than You know
But this dark hour I must do nothing
Though I've heard Your unbearable cry
The power in Your blood destroys all of the lies
Soon You'll see past their unmerciful eyes
Look there below, see the child
Trembling by her father's side
Now I can tell You why
She is why You must die"

"God make him who had no sin to be sin for us, so that in him we might become the righteousness of God"

2 Corinthians 5:21

Pride

2009-04-10T00:07:00.006+08:00

Pride.
i am proud cause despite of all the difficulties we faced during the pw process, we still managed to complete it
i am proud cause despite of all the crap that we encountered, we still manage to hang on till the end
i am proud cause despite how discouraged we were at many times, we still moved on
i am proud of the amount of effort we put in throughout the whole process
i am proud cause despite all the things we faced, we still managed to get a B
i am proud cause God had carried me through all these :]

Well, im really fine with my results. its entirely expected. at least i stand at the average and not the bottom. and im totally grateful for it. really.
though i cannot deny that tinge of disappointment :[
now, the probability for me getting straight As is 0. anyway it's impossible for me to get straight As to start with

to those who got As (well, the amount is really limited in AJ), namely sien! steph! nicholas, denning and of course shay, sijia and my bro, CONGRATS!! :D
to those who are disappointed who did not get an A. well, you can still get into a good faculty of your choice with 80plus rank points.
results doesn't define you, you do. they're just results. and nothing else. just results.

Special thanks to my pw group mates, qiumei and zhengxiang especially, junkai and yeah, ccr. i had definitely grown throughout my pw journey maybe more than anyone outside my group i dare to say. well, some of you will know what i mean :p
okay, im gonna credit mr lim too. thanks :]

anyway, when i was taking the bus back home today from tuition, a fight nearly exploded behind of the bus im taking. scared the daylight out of me. they were shouting vulgarities at everyone in the bus (yeah, which includes me. but i just continued to pretend that i was sleeping). and i seriously don't know what's the problem of the 2 girls who chose to provoke them. well the tension got heavier but luckily i alighted the bus..

guess the effect of sleeping for only 3h for the past few days has really gotten the better of me. totally in a daze now especially after such an, erm, eventful day.

off to sleep

Respite

2009-04-04T00:53:00.004+08:00

The Cat high power. woots

ohwells, glad to see my class finally doing somethings for family day this coming sun :]
whole class stayed back to prepare the stall decor.
and i have to agree with sien. guys' present are so difficult to find! :[
oh yeah, peiting, watch out!!

alright, a post out of randomness = meaningless :[

okay, i prefer this version to rainie's. but i guess rainie's version gives another feel

The revival of my lappy

2009-03-30T22:08:00.010+08:00

Self-explainatory.
YES. my notebook is back. like finally :D
ohwells, the past week was rather eventful even though my notebook was not around.
AJI and elearning.

(oh my, this look quite communist)
I probably could not express how much i am grateful to all those who contributed one way or another to AJI.
the Adhoc namely our boss kendrick, jolyn, cheryl, rueylin, amanda, zhenwei and jiaxin. and of course, the 25th. yes, EVERYONE.
not forgetting the 26th who helped out.
photog, AVA, eethai, Jae, wangling, sofia
and steph, for hearing me out :]
also, the finalists who put up such great performaces :]
and of course all of you, yes you, who went down on a wednesday night to watch the show :D
i will not say its perfect, but at least, im happy :] not much regrets, cause if it was to be held all over again, i'll probably make more or less the same decisions :/

elearning was 2 unproductive days. certainly not with code geass r2 loading on my com == but at least i've got enough rest, i guess :/

something about code geass r2 (non-anime fans, shoo! :D) haha. the song "i, will become a bird" is the total theme song for rolo. yeah, rolo is a sad character who no one appreciates until his death. really look forward to watching code geass r2 :] im only at ep4 now :[
will talk more about it when im done with the series!

Im down to days of rushing tutorials. and im glad i can finally to catch up.

oh yeah, its family day this sunday and im sort of looking forward to it :]
all the best for family day organising comm, dont be too stressed!

off to do gp and chem..

it's not only our show, it's everyone's show

Crashed.

2009-03-20T00:31:00.004+08:00

Yes, my lappy just failed me like that (crap, why am i suffering the same fate as clarence...)
life without com is rather miserable especially in this peak period
ohwell, maybe it's a sign for me to study hard :[

Anyway, march hoilday had been busy busy busy. but at least i feel its not time wasted :] (no, not referring to homework wise)

sincerely hopes that my lappy comes around soon!

2009-03-15T01:03:00.000+08:00

dang. i miss my IJ friends. alot.

met up with amanda that day. even it was only for a short while, it made me happy :]

2009-03-12T01:15:00.000+08:00

If you all don't mind, do take some time :]

頻率 by 蘇打綠

詞曲：史俊威

是不是只能透過雙手愛才會有交直流
我也找不到夠堅強的插座

看天空裡浮雲悠遊羡煞了我的不自由
我站在窗口我蹲在角落聽你的流動

誰說學不了微風過眼從山間飛過
看耳邊的窩堆成泡沫
嚥了下一口就放出彩虹落在我胸口

跳動的世界裡找你的頻率
靜止也不休息抓住你的呼吸
我再多說一句猜你的回應

誰說學不了微風過眼從山間飛過
看耳邊的窩堆成泡沫
嚥了下一口就放出彩虹落在我胸口

跳動的世界裡找你的頻率
靜止也不休息抓住你的呼吸
我再多說一句猜你的回應

流動的時間裡找你的旋律
轉眼整個世界只剩你的應許
今夜就開始放晴

我身上還有春天的痕跡
塵封的記憶已開始飄零
瞬間和永遠零距離

跳動的世界裡找你的頻率
靜止也不休息抓住你的呼吸
我再多說一句猜你的回應

流動的時間裡找你的旋律
轉眼整個世界只剩你的應許
我放自己飛行在有你的記憶

Family

2009-03-11T00:32:00.003+08:00

It was during GP lesson today that set me thinking of what's the definition of family. It's a place for shelter or just a mere group of blood-related people living together or perhaps not.

The government believes family as the basic unit of a nation. Dictionary.com defines it as parents and their children, considered as a group, whether dwelling together or not.
So what's with filial piety, increase divorce rates etc etc.

Yup, so what's the definition of family? quite an interesting food-for-thought right.

Failed? not really

2009-03-10T01:08:00.002+08:00

Better to fail with Honor then Succeed with Fraud

- Clarence's Ipod touch.

Ｅscape

2009-03-08T23:51:00.010+08:00

Yes yes, updates :]

its not that i want to neglect this blog cause there's nothing going on in my life. it's just that there are too many things revolving around me now, and i simply can't think of anything that are of importance/worth to pen(type) out on this blog :[ and partly due to the fact that my language ability came to a sharp decline ever since i entered JC. my grammar is getting worse, subject-verb agreement, spelling or whatsoever.. ohwell, not say i have any good language fundation to start with :[ the recent essay which i failed terribly further proved it.

it was a day of co-incidence yesterday.
i went out in the afternoon to watch my brother perform at plaza sing. firstly, at braddell mrt i saw gGrace who returned from her driving test (congrats girl! :]) after at PS, i saw Belinda and Cephus in the paper-cost-super-ex shop, then i saw my beloved ban-zhang Kristyn at the escalator :] (should had dragged her to meet sijia) anyway. later when i went toapayoh, saw zhengying and yiqi in watsons and saw tess at the basement toilet in hub. wow.

some pics from my bro's danceworks

stupid eye :[

yup. and that, is that.

went to celebrate crystal and sien's bd on friday at cafe cartel. haha, was very entertaining seeing 2 big guys totally scared off by a bee XD
anyway, hope you guys like the present which i wrapped at 3am the night before! ahha :]

its been a busy week, with phy spa, nafpa (which im still emo-ing over it) etc etc. and its gonna be a more busy week ahead :[

and honestly, im tried. but i know i can't be. press on

lalala, better go study for my chem test tmr!

2009-02-27T01:06:00.001+08:00

Hi all!

Will update soon soon soon soon.
just give me some time XD

somehow, i began to find physics tutorial entertaining.. 0.o

2009-02-11T01:28:00.000+08:00

Had been reflecting and thinking

and ouch, it really hurts..

Orientation!

2009-02-07T00:05:00.005+08:00

Nope, we haven't had our orientation. Its next week. and I'm facing it with mixed feelings. quickly get over with it or rather, don't want it to come. Besides, I'm feeling excited but also inadequate at the same time. Having J1s today calling me Joyce-jie is really quite interesting. haha

anyway! had a tiring day. woke up at 550. and i was of course late for the reporting time. Luckily I saw Sophia who was equally late as me.

So after reaching school, it was continuous work until 8.45pm, with lunch break in between of course. the main thing we did was to tie the huge alliance flag. yes, and we undid and redid it for at least 5 times X[

ohyah, just wanna thank the few odac guys (namely zhengxiang, zi yang(?), person3, person4, is there's a person 5?) who came to disturb me in the umbrella area. i was in a super desperate state alone there with yihui's com and you guys really lighten my mood. really. thanks :]
and thanks stephanie for accompanying me to see mr ng! i was expecting a scolding or something.
and also, thanks to all who helped to tie the alliance flag together :D I'm really sorry that i have to leave half way to do movement stuffs.

hopefully orientation will be fine. And I'll have a wonderful time catching up with the lessons that I will be missing for the whole of next week. screwed.

on a lighter note..

(love this song and lyrics)

遲到千年

by 蘇打綠
詞曲：青峰

卮言春天破碎鞦韆
踟躕不如停止抱歉
再過秋天爛了蜿蜒
紅燈你擱淺

只是你遲到一千年
黃昏後就不會有夜
髮間在印象中被蔓延
你說你放棄了八月
其實不需要蜻蜓點水
打昏自己食髓知味
吞了你用力一口下嚥
捧起碗在倥侗增添

闔起厭倦壓壞了肩
縮成了點還是一條線
接近直覺溺死詭譎
最熟最爛你的臉

http://gary3928cd.blogspot.com/2007/10/blog-post_25.html

I know God is going to pull me through. He is, He will. :D

CNY

2009-01-27T23:50:00.008+08:00

Firstly, i don't want CNY hoildays to end :[
Secondly. it means that the maths test on mac claurines and application of differentiation is coming up
Thirdly, the gp reading file, which I neglected since last year, is dued tomorrow
But lastly, it means less feasting, which is definitely a good news for me.

Anyway! went for choy's 18th bd part last Saturday. Theme is Hawaiian, so in the end, it ended up like some Hawaiian wedding dinner. Haha!

met up with sophie the day before to buy choy's present :]

Hula girls XD

you see what i mean..*Hawaiian wedding dinner*

Think im more tired even after 2 days of CNY hoildays. Anyway! have to get hold of myslef and stop slacking! Pick up the momentum.. It's either now if not it's too late.

Btw, it's out, it's out, it's out!
<漆黒の追跡者>

2009-01-22T23:50:00.005+08:00

Here's a warning for everyone. Don't , Never! Touch your eyes with dirty hands. if not you'll end up having very serious sore/swollen eye like mine :[

Chinese New year's nearing, but somehow, i just don't feel the atmosphere this year. maybe its because its too early, or is it there's NO decor at all in the school, or is it i'm just too caught up with school work.. Nah, i'll dismiss the last option.

Thinking of which.. im looking forward for the Chinese New Year celebration tmr. How contradicting. Even there's 3h of lessons before that ==

Anyway! let's look on the happy side of things. 2 days of hoildays! :D Get charged over this hoilday everone! and prepare for the new J1s!

Happy Chinese New Year to all!

Hope everyone stays happy and strong in this year of the ox :]

http://nitroblog.exblog.jp/
(quite an interesting pic huh)

Im speechless

2009-01-18T18:03:00.002+08:00

there you go

"My only teachers's day present was a 3rd draft WR to patrick lim."
-30/08/08

""just give up la" (credit to patrick lim)"
-27/08/08

yup, the only 2 time i mentioned the name in my blog. and will the the last also

Good afternoon mr lim! (since we never greeted you in class before)

So school starts again

2009-01-12T23:00:00.007+08:00

oh well, i survived the first of school :] though i need to confess that i did fell asleep during econs lecture :[

choy! the tree top walk photos from that day :D yep! we run/walk for 15km. feel so accomplished :] not forgetting to be a amazed tourist when we reached the tree top. hahaha

and back to ground...

quite beautiful huh..

Mugging?

2009-01-08T00:16:00.007+08:00

This is what happens when we study together

we went to play pool after that. oh man! there's only 4 more days to school start, and my hw are only half (or less) completed :[

joke of the day:

nicholas: let's go play pool after this
sien: okay! i like 9 ball (or something along that line)
clarence: eh! how to play 9 ball ah
all: aiyah, just hit the balls in according to its number!
clarence: oh! so how many balls are there?

on come dude, it's called "9 ball"

Argh.. i played lousily today :[

updates!

2009-01-06T23:13:00.026+08:00

Okay, its been a rather long time ever since i came online. and i shall post all the promised photos and events.. haha.

TW:
Omgosh, the shopping in tw is just crazy. spent $200 odd but bought a lot a lot of stuffs!

-4 bags
-2 shoes
-4 tops
-8 earrings
-1 shorts
-1 shirt
-10 hp straps
-6 keychains
-1 belt
-1 ring
-2 necklaces
-1 bangle
-3 stockings
haha. okay, cant remb much. and steph! i haven't pass you your present yet!

some photos taken in tw:

so cute!! :D

its a toilet bowl there!!

when i reached singapore, sijia, shay and kristyn gave me a surprise at the airport! ahhaha. :] thanks guys!

2 days after i reach singpore, went for clarence party at this super remote place at teck whye:

haha, the party mainly consisted of playing the Xbox tennis (which was super fun!) and some shooting game which i forgot what was it was called, and i sucked at it. mahjong session was good :] and sien learnt how to play mahjong! ahha. and blah blah, present time (as you can see from above) then i reached home at 0030 that day thanks to the distance between his and mine house

watch night service:
as i've mentioned, im damn glad that i went for it, even with the piling amount of work

2nd Jan:
was a happy day after all :] went meet shay first before going to PS to meet steph for a movie. after that, we went to the fishmarket there to eat. and thanks steph for the surprise! ahahaha. it ended up that the waiters started singing birthday song for me. so embarressing! but still, thanks :]

should have taken a photo with her :[ anyway! thanks for the dress! :D

later on, was dinner with cg :] yup, we were at fish and co. and they went to delicate a happy birthday song :] ahha another embarressing moment. haha, thanks guys! :]

do we really look alike?

we look like we are not in singapore!

you can never guess what they gave us... a studying kit! omgosh.. with foolscape, exercise books, coffee sweets, eraser and all the things you need to study. ahhaha. anyway! still, thanks :D

yup, that's about all. :] ohya, i've added more names down there for the previous post. haha

oh and btw, im 18, so old.. :[ now waiting for 21.. ahha

2nd Jan

2009-01-03T04:47:00.005+08:00

Just wanna express my appreciation to the following people who messaged, facebook-ed, msn-ed, celebrated for my birthday! :] and its finally a hoilday on my birthday and not the first day of school

Shayrer, Sijia, Sophie, Choy, Tingyi, Joshua, Walter, Shijia, Kristyn, Bella, Zhengying, Amanda wong, Janice, PohSin, Sien, Nicholas, Lucas, Cheeyee, Stephanie tan, Clarence, Kendrick lee and tan, Woonyee, Zhian, Zhengxiang, Lester, Lena, Yongli, Peiting, Joyce woon, Zhenwei, Jermyn, Junhao, Jeff, James, Kenghuang, Rachel koh, Mark tan, Fiona ng and lee, Xinling, Sihui, Francis, Kathleen, Gaberial Goh, Randy, Ruth, Sneha, Christal ng, Candice, Xianming, Jhunboon, Kristal, Glen, Ester and her mum! and the waiters of mahanttan fishmarket and the-person-who-sang in Fish and co.!

yup, if i happen to leave out anyone, im sorry! :[ i have bad memorary :[ but i really hope i got everyone

i promise i will upload pictures and post more about today! :D+ my tw trip.. its just too crazy if i do at this hour ==

2009-01-02T01:39:00.005+08:00

some interesting conversations:

first joke of the year:
*playing bridge and clarence happens to win the bid

all: oi, Clarence, hurry choose a partner

Clarence (in a rather firm manner, without a doubt): erm.. 2 of hearts!

last joke of last year:
*my borther and i went to my mum's friend's house to take some things as she's moving out of Singapore (she gave us a lot of things). we saw our grandma on the way back

grandma (in hokkien): got say thank you not!

bro + me: got!

bro (in a bimboic manner): jinx!

me (in a very bimboic manner + roll my eyes): oh my god~

hahaha, lame!

2009!

2009-01-01T04:33:00.004+08:00

What an ungodly hour.

Just feel like writing something on this New Year day, after 2.5hr of continuous proposal. :[
ohwell, im just very glad that i chose to go for the watchnight service today, even though it means that i have to sleep at this hour. its totally worth it :]

i was wondering very hard if i should go for the watchnight serivce this afternoon provided i have 2 urgent proposals dued on the 1st jan and 2nd jan. oh wow. and teachers are checking our homework next tuesday, despite the fact that school starts on the 12th.
but, i was thinking.. aiyah, just go by Faith and you'll not regret. and yup, im just gald that i went :]

And my new year resolutions? though i think i'll never keep to it, but i think its good to have one. so here it is:

1) Grow spiritually
2) Concentrate on whatever things im doing i.e dont side track
3) Study hard play less (Alevel!)
4) Continue to play piano, at least don't be too out of touch
5) Treat every relationships be it with friends, family etc with more sincerity
6) Think before i act
and... haha, that's what i can think of now.

Happy New Year to all :]

2008-12-31T01:26:00.003+08:00

hey all, i'll make updates real soon. next week or something.. taiwan, airport surprise, party etc... feeling sick and tired.. haha, as in don't feel like doing anything ever since im back from tw. oh no :[
probably because im caught up with an anime, again :p

and the following is delicated to woonyee. haha, i bet you know the meaning :]
you better dont 見色忘友!! haha

Taiwan~

2008-12-13T17:49:00.003+08:00

hi all,

finally able to get an internet.
Alright, i feel obliged to update my whereabouts and for my missing in action :[

Yup, im right now in Taiwan! due to some reasons so there's no internet service in my house. (no, i don't live in a village ==) so I can't blog (im sorry rain :[ )or see my email or whatsoever.

Been to many many places, ate many many food, bought many many stuffs :D i need to control :[
ohyah. and my hw? hahahaha. i've started on my gp for several times and im still at "to people in parts of the world where ethnic and religious conflicts persist,......." (huh, i even remembered it)

im rather glad that there's no internet. you know, so i wont be too obsessed with the internet stuffs and sleep at normal time! :] no more 3am or 4am. i've been sleeping at 1am! :D that's an achievement.

that's about it. hopefully i can get internet more often.
and its super dark here at 6pm

2008-12-05T01:20:00.008+08:00

It's been an eventful 3 days for me. 2dec service learning at yishun day care center, 3dec service learning and dnd at night, lastly today, the 4dec, service learning again.

im too tired to blog about anything now. service learning, managing all those kids were just simply drop dead difficult and tired.

kids from the day care center. you can consider that guy in white a kid also.. look at how he eats:

_________________

dnd was okay i guess (i hope! :X) haha.. just wanna thank my committee for all the help before and during the event :] especially durin g the event. there's so many impromtu stuffs! and all the performers who put up with the behaviours of the audience (but i really do hope they enjoyed!). haha. 2 things was lost (and found of course). one is walkie talkie (which i found under a chair. luckily!) two is a laptop! Wa, really scared the daylight out of me. but in the end we left it at the hotel. haha.

stephanie and i in the handicaps toilet changing. haha!

okay kendrick, as promised.

this dude there is pretty disgusting. he was at dnd yesterday and apprently he did not go home for the night (this pic was taken in school on the 4th) not to mention the shirt that his wearing. its his sister's btw.

im gonna sleep now. i need to go school tmr :[

new sunglasses!

2008-12-01T01:35:00.005+08:00

yay! my mum (who went back to tw a few days ago) went malaysia and bought this pretty white sunglasses that i always wanted :D

count down, 3 more days to freedom
7 more days to liberation
9 more to get out of singapore.. :D

blah

2008-11-30T00:18:00.005+08:00

For many times, I've told myself to get down to work and stop slacking. But oh shit. everytime, without fail, somethings will get the better of me and i hate to admit.. :[

Argh, there's just too much temptation that i couldn't resist. :[ :[ :[ :[

i realized what i want the most for now. at least. is to sleep in peace without any worries :[
even that is so difficult for me achieve now. :[

ohwell, i guess its because it should be holiday already and yet, i don't feel like it :[ that's why maybe im so restless. hahaha

argh, my clip is stuck in my extension

this is supposed to be faye wong's song. but he sang it so erm, beautifully. its really nice :]

Alone

2008-11-19T00:12:00.009+08:00

Been traveling alone (around Singapore of course. ==) for a few times nowadays.. well, i somehow really likes the feeling, it gives you time to think through things, since you cant really do much while traveling.
not trying to imply im a loner, but this feeling just makes you erm.. feel better (?)

on class outing day: was supposed to join my class after my meeting in school. so i went down harbor front alone. when i reached there, i found it quite no point to join them since im already so late. so took the train back to braddell alone.

the next day: travelled to harbor front alone again. to meet my sec4 classmates for Christabel's farewell pary (so sad she went back to malaysia :[)

the day before today: travelled to amk library alone on this super empty 851 bus. haha, it feels nice somehow. especially when the bus is new, with only 2 people and a driver..

today: went to school in the morning. went back home, reached home, realized i did not bring my house key. so went to toa payoh to meet my mum. at night, went for jap class in town. so basically, i've walked the route (from my house to mrt station) for 6 times today.. ==

after my jap class, i need to go buy some invitation cards, so i decided to go taka kino at around 2145. but it was closed :[ walked alone in town at 2145 near 2200 its really quite nice. though you'll feel abit akward cause you can see alot of couples around.. when i reached braddell walked that dark dark street/alley (whatever you call it) alone. haha. feels nice, especially when you know you have nothing to rush for :]

i really like long bus/mrt rides :]

some pictures for christabel's farewell:

Amy and I making christbel's farewell present in the library. haha! its the fu lu shou wooden thingie bought in popular! :D

Christbel, Amy and Sijia and me (not in pic) went to eat pizza together :]

more pictures are to come! haha, im too lazy to upload.. pics of farewell party and zy's bd dinner with shay coming soon :]

to mike guglielmucci

2008-11-17T02:41:00.004+08:00

Choy sent me a video. yup, just wanted to share it

...Confessing to God is not enough. We need to confess to each other in order to be healed.
Why isn't confessing to God enough? Why do we need to confess to each other?
Because: If we don't confess to each other, we are still fearing man.
And if we fear man, we are not completely trusting God. ...

"Carry each other's burdens, and in this way you will fulfill the law of Christ"
~Gal 6:1-2

2008-11-09T23:51:00.019+08:00

Long time no blog! Haha, i should start from the end journey of PW..

Practicing oral presentation at ZX's house:

Qiumei serious in work

ahha, Qiumei practising

ZX the great

Junkai.........

and:

Trying to be Zac and Vannessa but obviously failed.. haha

haha, Junkai...

on op day:

my op group. with a missing member of course. haha

Plastic Ghandi, cheers! :]

can see that the guys are very hungry..

2008-11-01T01:32:00.001+08:00

I miss the raining days...

PW's gonna be over..
gonna be over..
be over..
over..

Ame

2008-10-23T23:25:00.000+08:00

Loving the rain

2008-10-21T04:46:00.002+08:00

And finally, the story always come to a happy ending. 4.46am. alrights, qm and i are off to sleep after doing and going through multiple drafts of WR. Just in time for tmr's submission.

But it's still not the end of story until tmr's 11am.

認命

2008-10-20T22:10:00.002+08:00

I know you are trying to make it better, I know that you are trying very hard, I know that you want to make this final one real good, I know that you are trying your best to help our group and I really (and i really mean it) do appreciate it.

But why must you do at this point of time, at around 10 plus pm before the date of submission. And you still need to get it laser printed in the morning the next day and rush back to school to meet the deadline at 1030. Why cant all these be done earlier.

and why must qm and I cry because of this.
fine, i just have to admit that we have different (very different) working styles.

GP lecture

2008-10-19T23:24:00.010+08:00

This is what a typical gp lecture here can do to us.

oops :p

ignore the doreamon. Please vote for the cutest rabbit! clockwise from the top left hand corner, 1,2 and 3 respectively. please vote wisely! :D

now! Please vote for the best doraemon. haha, from the top, 1,2 and 3 respectively. :D

Breath Taking

2008-10-18T02:14:00.009+08:00

++ TaNNin-In-Ur-SuNraY ++ 說:
u noe wads 格桑花?
假象。。。　哦，原來是真相說:
erm
假象。。。　哦，原來是真相說:
no
假象。。。　哦，原來是真相說:
?
++ TaNNin-In-Ur-SuNraY ++ 說:
Ar~
++ TaNNin-In-Ur-SuNraY ++ 說:
hahaha
++ TaNNin-In-Ur-SuNraY ++ 說:
wrong window
++ TaNNin-In-Ur-SuNraY ++ 說:
hahahah
++ TaNNin-In-Ur-SuNraY ++ 說:
aniwae
++ TaNNin-In-Ur-SuNraY ++ 說:
ya
++ TaNNin-In-Ur-SuNraY ++ 說:
since u duno
++ TaNNin-In-Ur-SuNraY ++ 說:
its e flower mentioned in xin zhong de ri yue
假象。。。　哦，原來是真相說:
ohh
假象。。。　哦，原來是真相說:
really ah
++ TaNNin-In-Ur-SuNraY ++ 說:
shangri la's flower
++ TaNNin-In-Ur-SuNraY ++ 說:
means happiness
++ TaNNin-In-Ur-SuNraY ++ 說:
hahaha
++ TaNNin-In-Ur-SuNraY ++ 說:
vari pretti
假象。。。　哦，原來是真相說:
hahah
假象。。。　哦，原來是真相說:
really?
++ TaNNin-In-Ur-SuNraY ++ 說:
wait i show u pics

indeed...

++ TaNNin-In-Ur-SuNraY ++ 說:
xin zhong de ri yue in 藏文 means 人间仙境
++ TaNNin-In-Ur-SuNraY ++ 說:
refer to 香格里拉

hahaha super random. but its really nice :]

so untouched by mankind. i wonder how many places are like that now..
This sort of reminded me of 稻香

it makes me wonder, yet again..

2008-10-17T03:09:00.001+08:00

Just completed WR draft 6 with Qiumei. So! its finally time to sleep.

YAYY

Expectations

2008-10-13T23:42:00.003+08:00

Got back all my results on last Thursday. Well, I guess Im over that emo period. As expected (and i cant expect mush either), not well done. especially for my econs. was expecting a much higher grade but............
so this further proves the point, the higher you expect, the greater the disappointment.

I need to work real hard next year to get a decent A level grade. A level. Omgosh, it seems so real now. ==

But now, the more pressing matter is not A level, definitely not (or should i say it's the last thing in my mind now)
PW alone is enough to get my world spinning. Not to mention DnD and Jap. rahh.

Miracle

2008-10-07T23:27:00.002+08:00

I need a miracle to happen. Especially after knowing that there are 10 potential retainees in our class today. D:
Looking at my midyear results and the level of confidence i have in all my papers, i really do need a miracle to happen in order not to be deemed as a PR.

OP workshop was a total screw up for me too. :[

In a nutshell, 07102008 is definitely not the day for me.

iDIE, iSCREW, iRETAIN, iPRAY

enter the Hall of Faith

2008-10-06T22:11:00.012+08:00

I realized that im beginning to lose my blogging ability (not say i have any to start with). But for many times i just stoned at this empty box, having no idea where to start from. Not because that my life's too happening that i dont know where to start. But rather, too mundane that i cant think of any interesting things.
ohwells, maybe i cant star from the school based post promos programme, the sand castle building on friday at east coast.

I did have fun, riding bicycle and all. :] not forgetting the rain that visited us for like 22 minutes. hahaha, building sand castles in raincoat, what an unique experience. :S
some pictures :] thanks to clarence and clara!

20/08! :]

i really dont mean it mahadir! :[ yeah, i threw sand and it covered mahadir's face :[

si en! i think this pic looks nice :]

peiting and my dear pw mate :]

By the way, i wouldn't survive the night without the tremendous help from these two:

crystal, thanks for your sexy shorts! and sien, for your shirt! :]
I got dunked into the water by i-shall-not-mention-who. And being as unprepared as always, i did not bring any change of clothes :[
so thanks again! :D

i did not eat dinner due to the short of money and i wasn't really in the mood too. but, koping food is really one of my favourite pass time :D my appreciation goes out to lucas, clarence and nicholas. :D wahahahahaha.

What happened later in the night is not for me to mention. and im not in the position to say anything. :[
Anyway, besides that, its really a very interesting sight to see 7 guys sitting on the beach at night. :]

and that, is that. :]
__________________

I had always told myself to not be like sijia and complain about PW on my blog, since i think nobody will like reading it. but, oops, sijia, i think i'll have to follow your footsteps.(hahahaha) cause pw's power is too overwhelming for me to resist :[
i have myOP workshop tmr and my script is still not edited. Just handed in our first draft of I&R and i can predict what is he gonna say. "piece of shit", "full of rubbish", "just give up la", "no hope already", "dont disgrace me la" and what not.

okay! off to prepare my OP stuffs, in order not to get screwed tmr! :[

2008-10-05T00:54:00.002+08:00

Hey, if i sound dao on msn, please! DONT TAKE IT TAKE IT TO HEART. :]

2008-10-02T01:39:00.002+08:00

No words can be used to describe the fatigue im experiencing right now. I WANT TO SLEEP.
But looking at the amount of things i need to finish. i doubt i can sleep in peace.

The worse part is, i don't even know how to do! and am too lazy to do :[

bahh, heck. Tomorrow then say.

The "after promos" post

2008-09-29T01:51:00.002+08:00

The season of exams (for me) is finally over :] So now i just have to pray, hope, wish, cross finger and believe that I'll clear promos! Meanwhile, life's not gonna get any better. With intensive dnd planning, jap lessons, council and not to forget our beloved pw.

anyway! let's talk about promos (...)

gp: hohoho. i wrote on a topic that i never tried before. hope will be fine, though im doubtful. I spammed 5 paragraphs of aq, without knowing what im acutally writing ==
econs: by right my most confident paper. even though i drew a price floor curve instead of a kinked demand curve.
maths: gone case. i left nearly all the integration questions blank
chem: neither here nor there.. more to the bad sad i guess :[
phy: hahaha...

will post pics soons (too lazy now.. its 0204! :[ im back to my usual routine). The 1500g tub of ice cream after promos was shoik. :] also the neoprint experience with the guys. hahahahaha. and clarence! (if you are reading this) Painted Skin was really not bad :D

i need to exercise!

2008-09-19T00:16:00.001+08:00

Finally done with PW

So its time to mug.

2008-09-09T01:26:00.003+08:00

A random post out of boredom..
Wasn't really in the right mood to study for the past few hours. so i better start now :[
Phy SPA's tmr!
All the best for promos everyone. mug hard, then play hard.
either mug or retain.
we were discussing about why people don't like to be called a mugger. ohwells, i really do find them amazing, really. (no sarcasm intended)
There's really nothing wrong about mugging. but in the midst of mugging, please, play. haha..
i want to mug, but temptations are just too great. (yeah, like what im doing now :[)
and my EoM is really gone case.

i pray for one thing. and that is believe.

休暇; holiday

2008-09-05T01:36:00.002+08:00

As i took a look at my messenger, whoa, there's 30 people online at this point of time. Normally it'll only be like around 7. yeah, everyone's in holiday mood! :]

ohwell, like what sijia said, its a study break.
so i've been STUDYING! yay. not that efficiently i guess. but its really remarkable how i even completed my arenes and econs tutorial and come chem remedial worksheets already! though its not very well done. now there's differential equations, phy online quiz, piles of undone remedial worksheets and past year promo papers left. haha== i need 48hrs a day. :[
DnD finally came to a pause. i hope.

"i trusted you" oh whatever.

2008-08-31T02:32:00.001+08:00

Tell be what to do..

tired... (as in physically)

I need the motivation! :[

Teachers' Day

2008-08-30T01:38:00.008+08:00

Teacher's day celebration today went rather well, though i did not get to see the whole concert. My only teachers's day present was a 3rd draft WR to patrick lim. haha. After helping to clean up the hall a bit, rushed of madly to go back IJ! :]

Im glad that i went back to IJ today! :] I really learnt how to appreciate secondary school life ever since i came JC.
Seeing my ex classmates, going into my ex 4/1 classroom, crossing the same old road, standing outside the all so familiar staff room looking for teachers, standing in the hall-of-faith feeling the chill left behind cause of the air-con during mass and celebration, eating the always-2-bucks chicken rice... I wanna take Olevels all over again. ohwells, at least better than Alevels. ==

Pictures speak a thousand words so here they are :]

credits to sijia! :] i want some more pics!

2008-08-29T02:55:00.002+08:00

Dilemma.
neither way will go right. just pick

2008-08-27T22:30:00.004+08:00

After around 5 months of PW i still cant comprehend why on earth is PW even in our JC curriculum. A total waste of time i must say.
EoM is giving me a big headache, WR is screwing me up and the upcoming OP, i predict, will be killing me. "just give up la" (credit to patrick lim), yeah, i really wants to, if i can. But i guess since so many unfortunate Singapore students had went through or are going through the same thing, i might as well close one eye and pull through it.

Alright, sleeping at 3am everyday is really not a very healthy habit. you wake and you'll find your lower back (around the kidney area) hurting real bad every morning. and eating uncontrollably does not help too. look at how much i ate today:

morning: at least 5 wantons
after pe: chrysanthemum tea+ one bite of crystal's potato
during maths: xiaoqi's biscuit and nikki's chocolate cake
lunch: 2 solid packets of kfc popcorn chicken and around 3 chicken breast, chest, leg or whatever meat. plus all those side dishes.
teabreak: passion fruit drink, macs ice-cream and milk tea
dinner: baked rice
0.o if i continue at this rate, i'll be 60 sooner or later...

anyway...
sleeping at 3am is okay if you achieve something more than others. but i have been sleeping at 3 just to complete the tutorials that are dued the next day or, catching up with overdued tutorials. i guess im abit and i must stress abit more hardworking compared to my midyears. And i dont know how far can that abit fetch me to.. retain? promote?. so somehow i have to change that abit to alot. argh.

off to do WR now! :[

解決する; Settled

2008-08-24T23:35:00.003+08:00

i need to rant. there's still alkanes, alkenes, half completed integration, superposition. eom, wr... and here i am slacking my time away... ==

When i take a rest and look back at the week that had just passed, its funny that despite my busy schedule, and yet nothing real productive is being done. is like.. when i place the integration tutorial in front of me, all the energy in me previously just starts draining. seeing me K.O.-ed in front of any form of school notes is not a rare sight, but seeing me diligently taking down notes during lectures will not be a common sight. that sleep bug inside me is just so freaking powerful $%^&$^ gosh..

ohwells, i finally realized who i had missed out in all these midst. i must admit that it so easy to put Him out of the picture, but i cant deny that His always there, be it you like it or not. and i truly thank and praise Him for it.

feeling tired and starts taking pity on myself is real stupid. pray for strength and move on joyce.

i've stopped my jap lesson, sadly, but i guess its the sacrifice that i need to make. with that, i hope i will have abit more time for my tutorials! :]

i shall end off with a pic before doing alkenes tutorial ==..
was looking through my facebook and i somehow find this rather nice, i mean the angle, background and all. not the people. especially the one on the right in white shirt with the word "iDance" right smacked across it.

重聚; Reunion

2008-08-14T22:22:00.012+08:00

hello :] I'm back to update my blog! Haha, its been stagnant for a period of time. well, cause there's nothing really worth blogging about. Now I'm just mainly so tied up with school work and PW(?) that i really dont know where i should begin with.

The only event worth talking about should be the 8/8/08(woo! :]) reunion at Kath's house. meet up with sijia and shay, talked! very much about the things that i normally wont share. Fun at Kath's house, also very pleased with the attendance. I was super happy when i saw Amy there (cause she'll always go MIA). We talked, ate ate and ate, and watched Olympics opening (its really very grand i must say).
ohwells, since i have not got the pictures yet, i shall put past year's 4/1 photos :]

okay, anyway... i better start doing physics now.
argh, im addicted to a manga now :[
mind you, both person in the pictures are guys :]

I'm tired, very tired, sick and tired

比べる; contrast

2008-07-27T23:23:00.012+08:00

Unlike the previous post, this one shall be a light-hearted one :]

Went Choy's place to have a CG dessert session after church. Before that, went mugging at mos.
The desert Choy made are really super cool! haha, its like ice-cream in a real flower pot and crushed oreo as the "mud" with a rose in it. haha. And the guys were complaining why they dont have rose in their ice-cream. haha. Ohwell, Im not good at describing. Just take a look at the pictures :]

It was a happy day today, until when i went back home. ==
Anyway, im off to sleep now. See, im really making an effort not to sleep in lectures anymore.

P.S. Thanks everyone, really :] Not trying to be emo or something, just ranting.

叛逆

2008-07-25T21:45:00.006+08:00

Just shut up. cause its really getting on my nerves. Not as if i dont know what am i doing and what i had done.

Seriously, what had today's ptm did to you. You were never like that before.

Rather to believe what others say, but never listen to what i have to say. But yeah, i do tell lies.
Im sorry if i did badly for my midyears, but at the rate you are going and thinking, i dont think im gonna pass promos. 其實我不被動.

Omgosh, from now on, i wont be able to have any social life, cant go online, cant chat online, cant watch tv and..? I duno, i really dont know.. I just know im so screwed.

if you think im gonna retain ( please please! stop saying i will retain and that you need to visit the principal at year end to plead for my promotion), I just want to tell you this:
Im so gonna pass my J1 promotional exams and promote to J2, ma.

Nothing much really happened that's worth posting nowadays. just the N6 cluster dance at St. Nicholas before today's dreadful PTM. You know.. there's always the clam before the storm.

出来事の多い; eventful

2008-07-16T23:38:00.004+08:00

I had never expected today to be such an eventful day. Be it good or bad. Council meeting, an impromptu mediacorp filming on AJC which im one of the backdrop. ==

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Ever since i received my MYCT results, i developed this phobia of going to tutorials. Partly cause the tutors are really monitoring my behavior in class and also due to my own resolutions. Im scared that i wont be able to keep the promises and im scared that i dont understand tutorials.

argh. having a very very bad flu. and Aj ice coffee is poisonous!

其實玩牌看的不是牌，是人。只要架勢好，氣勢強，牌自然就會漂亮。 -紀存希 whoa..

2008-07-15T00:59:00.001+08:00

I finally found it. Its Chopin "Fantasie" Impromptu, Op. 66. :]

愛; love

2008-07-12T22:53:00.002+08:00

I will agree that it is so much easier to hate others than to love them. But i also agrees that it is so much happier and rewarding to love someone else than to hate them. so why hate? To make yourself more miserable?

And i also know that things are easier said than to be done.

忙しい; busy

2008-07-12T02:59:00.004+08:00

the busy life for the past few weeks had left me thinking. are these really what i want? there's no external factors or commitments that contributes to it, its mainly due to my own personal selfish and childish and possibly stupid reasons.
there's really not much work for me to do in council, so the only task the school is giving me now is to study study and study, which im not doing much of it. so why am i still so busy.
im having a life? but i dont feel at all contented with the life im living right now. everyday is just another day, nothing for me to look back nor there will be any memories. im just living a mundane life and somehow, im busy, sleeping at 3am everyday.
so why on earth am i so busy.
im not tired, just feeling unaccomplished.

so here's the problem. i go to school everyday with the feeling of not achieving anything.
so here's the solution. stop sleeping in lectures, concentrate in tutorials and play my role well as a student as well as a councilor..
hope it'll help.

and i think i deceived someone.. :[

負ける; Succumb

2008-07-05T00:45:00.004+08:00

Update!

Im back updating after my midyears which i screwed up real bad. Nothing really worth blogging about so you all can see why this blog was left stagnant for a period of time.

Getting back my results have not been such a pain process for me. Since i already roughly knew where im standing. Looking back at the amount of effort i had put in, i deserve what i got. U, S and E. maths, chem and GP respectively.
Once again, im back to the usual Joyce promising herself to put in more effort for the next coming tests/ exams and yet these promises were broken over and over again. "Promises are meant to be broken". i dont agree to it, but i succumb to it.

i don't know what my future holds nor i know where this moment leads to. Walk in Faith the path God has planned for me.

2008-06-16T00:36:00.002+08:00

Hi :] just came back from God Encounter 2008 @ KL, Malaysia, Palace of the Golden Horses. haha. it takes 10min to walk from our room to the dining area, provided we dont take the short cut. will post the pics when choy uploaded them :]

Believe-Logic= Faith :]

Renewed and Refreshed by God's presence. God bless all :]

2008-06-11T23:58:00.001+08:00

Im off to Malaysia, KL, from tmr onwards to sunday for church camp. see you all tell then! :]

i have not enough time to study! :[

2008-06-10T20:23:00.001+08:00

Im down to days of unproductive studying.. ==

FOCUS, CONCENTRATE JOYCE!
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YOU

SHOULD

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STUDYING.

2008-06-07T01:04:00.026+08:00

Went Sentosa today. hahha. fun!! and really want to thank God that the weather was good :]
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waiting for me.. (sorry! :[)

at giant trying to source for our budget lunch! haha. bought this huge loaf of bread for 1.35 bucks. super worth it. :]

on the monorail..

me trying to apply the super imp sunblock!

when we reached sentosa, started out playing volleyball. haha, i got owned totally! ohwells, its the first time im trying!

touch rugby. super fun! and sophie run damn fast. haha

then its our budget lunch! haha. its damn nice acutally.

after lunch slacked abit, built walter's sandcastle cake before going down into the water :]

after that went into the super dirty full of oil sea. haha.. then went to bath! damn funny cause tinyi and me forgot to bring shampoo soap extra clothing all those, so we ended up bathing like this:

haha, think we hogged up the whole place for 30min or so. then went to eat again! haha and play cards :]

yupp, went back after that, waited super long for the ride so i guess we got bored while waiting haha.. in the end we walked back to the station instead.

...

home sweet home~

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that's about it. went food republic at vivo to eat after that, where most of us was knocked out. haha. the only sort of unhappy thing is that i got super tanned! not those nice tan, but dirty tan :[. ohwells. i'll try to the best of my ability to stay out of the sun during this holiday. ohman, think zx's gonna laugh at me :[
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Sentosa_0606 :]

努力

2008-06-01T23:37:00.005+08:00

就算努力，不一定會成功。可是若不努力，就一定不會成功。

~我很不甘心，因為看得見卻搆不到，所以不甘心。~

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again..
Announcement to ALL 20/08 people. EOM first draft is due on the 2nd week of term 3, tuesday. please type it out and send it to me. my email is found on the contact list. please take note that my 8734 phone number on the contact list is wrong so you all can find out my new number from me. please pass this message around too. thanks! :]

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We went zx's house for pw today.. ohwell, you all can see/guess what we ended up doing.

2008-05-30T00:30:00.005+08:00

Severe headache with super heavy eye lids.
And here i am trying to complete the gpp. but i really thank God for my friends who helped me along. and qiumei, also a big thank you to you :]

the main reason contributing to my state now [...]
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haha. the half completed post was typed before i fall alseep in front of the com yesterday. i break camp yesterday and reached home at about 8+. packed my bag for super long, went to bathe and had dinner. started doing gpp at around 11+. fell asleep at 1+am then woke up at 2+am to continue. so i slept at 3am after 6days of camp.==
ohwell, let's not talk about it.

before i forget, Mr Lim told me this today:
Announcement to ALL 20/08 people. haha in short, my class. EOM first draft is due on the 2nd week of term 3, tuesday. please type it out and send it to me. my email is found on the contact list. please take note that my 8734 phone number on the contact list is wrong so you all can find out my new number from me. please pass this message around too. thanks! :]

AB camp:
the experience was totally different from elects' camp. hmm.. some major events that happened was sand castle, LAC, land ex, high+low elements and service learning.

sand castle: was unexpectedly fun! haha but quite sad that we did not get to take a picture of the sand castle our group built.

LAC: Labrador adventure centre.disgusting place especially the toilets. haha, i had a lot of interesting encounter though. i went there for P5 camp and i felt that it was much better at that time.

land ex: was rather fun actually. haha even though we got the easiest route, we still managed to get lost. owed our instructor 20 pumps for that, though they just let us off :] our group did not cheer much but talked nearly continuously throughout the whole expedition.

high+ low elements: fun! though i did not manage to complete the rock wall which i completed in P5 ==. challenge pole was super high but rather steady and broken bridge was low but super shaky. low-e was fun! our whole group had to try balancing on this huge plank.

SL: was really an eye opener. and think this really made the whole AB camp more fulfilling. we have to interact with mentally disable people and i've really learnt quite abit from them. the performances were really super funny.

so that's about it. not mentioning the bathing and pumping parts, the whole camp was actually fine. at least we had enough sleep and food.
i would also like to say thank you to my group (Dakota! group6) who made the 6days camp much more bearable and fun for me :]
i hope i can get the pictures if the camp soon.

so now, back doing my gpp ==

and im praying hard for it(really hard), to face it and to accept it for whatever the outcome might be. walk by faith and not by sight joyce.

2008-05-21T22:07:00.010+08:00

Okay! its been quite a long time ever since i blogged. yupp, and now i feel obliged to tag everyone who tagged during my long absence from the internet. but still, thanks! :]

i had spent nearly all the time last fri to sat on the bed hoping that my 38.8(!) degrees fever will subside. well, it did. it went down to 36.3 on sunday morning :] and that's why my mum allowed me to go to the choir concert. heh.

well, nothing much happened though. college day(it was a rather.. hmm how shall i put it.. solemn college day). choir concert. thumbs up for everyone in choir! :]. yeah, that's about it. oh yeah, aj bball got in to the finals and the match's tmr. right now im still contemplating if i should go down. initially i was still confident that i wont be going down but after hearing that monica said, i have to say, i faltered. "its our team that got into the finals. and you are not going down to support? that's the spirit of ajcian." something along that line.

some pics that we took when we went down to celebrate bella's birthday. i went in to hwa chong! haha. and i was like: whoa. its even a school?

(my face looks super big here!)

this is super cool! haha, as you can see this is done during the vball match. not by me of course. its made out of 13 graphs by the way. heh

and weixuan! my blog seem not to like you. cause i already linked you but the link dont seem to appear :[

2008-05-14T23:51:00.006+08:00

1)At what age do you wish to be married?
23? 25? before 30 definitely.

2) If you were to be stranded on a deserted island, who are the 3 buddies you’d take and why?Shay,Sijia, Amy :]

3) Where is the place that you want to go the most?
Anywhere in Japan.

4) If you can have 1 dream come true, what would it be?
? i have too many wishes.

5) Do you believe you can survive without money?
No.

6) What are you afraid to lose the most?
Things that i believe in?

7) If you win $1 Million, what would you do?
Spend them. And hopefully i wont need to work for the rest of my life.

8) If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
No.

9) List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
Haha. Im not good at describing people :p

10) What is your dream GIRL/BOY?
That guy who acted in Sky of love

11) What kind of person do you hate the most?
Elitists. Or rather, people who think they are.

12) If you are given the chance to go back to the past and make a difference, will you?
No. What was done was done.

13) Unconditional Love, what does it means to you?
God.

14) Any wisdom to share with your readers
我們可以不用認同，但是要理解。

15) If there’s ever a war(or things that are similar) happening in your place, are you going to move to a safer place or fight?
Yes. I'll move back to Taiwan. hahaha

16) If you have the chance, which part of your character you would like to change?
My "anything", "i dunno", "see first" character.

17) Who is the person that you can share all your problems with?
God.

18) What’s your weakest point?
Sleeping in lectures.

19) Think of the person who tagged you to do this quiz. What song do you relate him/her to?
Chinese songs.

20) What is the one thing you regret most?
For now: P, C, M and E.

21)Name people who you want them to do this question.
Those who read this and keeps a blog. Namely, Choy, Stephanie, Jun Hao, Pei Ting, Clarence, Zhian, Si En, Zheng Xiang, Wei Xuan and all the stalkers.. Haha, its up to you guys :]

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OK! im finally done. haha. k, back doing my gpp ==

2008-05-10T23:47:00.002+08:00

I wanna have cg every week :]

2008-05-08T23:36:00.006+08:00

"気持ち悪い"

So wanna watch this:

《福音戰士新劇場版：序》--YOU ARE（NOT）ALONE